Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Like Sands Through An Hour Glass

So are the days of our lives.

It gets easier with time.......How much God Damn time?!

It's only been a year........It feels like a fuckin lifetime!!

She will always be with you......But I can't touch her, I want to sit in her lap.

SHe isn't really gone.....Then where the fuck is she?! CUz she isn't here dammit.

She'll always be in your heart.....I want her in my arms.

She"s in a better place.....Blow it out your ass, there is no better place.

You have to be strong....No, no I don't I can't she was strong and look what happened.

I just want my mommy back, why is that so hard to understand?


  1. Having a few anger issues are we? The mom in me is pursing her lips and giving you a look. Selfish doesn't look good on you. Mom could carry it though--and make it look cute too. She refused to use her turn signal to change lanes, because no one else used theirs. I have this picture in my mind about her mischievious grin in a high school picture that reminded me in a flash of another mischievious grin--Melody's when she "fell" into the pond at Mary's that I told her she wasn't allowed to swim in. Erika was very special, but you were that kid that Monica describes in her e-mail. We were all pretty boring and staid, but you showed up full of enthusiasm--just like mom in her family. Don't feel grief, feel blessed. I know, I do.

  2. Ah, Adrienne... My heart is aching for you. I am so blessed to still have my Mom. {{hugs}} I know that losing her will be one of the most difficult things I have to go through yet.


  3. Adrienne, grief is a process. Take as long as you need. Anyone who tells you otherwise can stuff it. ((hugs))

  4. I understand. Cry all you want. Bitch all you want. It's not fair and anyone who says it is can eat goat balls.

  5. I am right here with you, feeling the same pain. I just lost my mom in July. It was totally unexpected and way too soon. I was not ready, nor do I think I ever would have been. It isn't fair. It sucks and I'm angry and hurt for us both. (((((HUGS)))))

  6. Every time I've read this I've thought OMG I know I will feel this way when my mother is gone.

  7. I just can't imagine life without my mom, and one of my biggest fears is having to face that reality someday. I can't say I know how you feel, but I can understand why your feel that way. I imagine it feels unbearable sometimes.